Last Heart

2010-10-19T17:11:00.002+08:00

It hurts when u get bitten on ur back, it hurts more when the ones u care bites u, and it hurts most when it is not one...but two.....on the same spot...everything i do seem to be wrong, when i was told to do the things asked, i was wrong for not doing the thing not asked, and got scolded badly. when i got comfort, i return it with care, and that care become something unpleasent. i am wrong again. so what is the point am i doing those stuff? i dont even know... I am really tired. it really hurts....but the ones i care most didnt notice it....

Past present future

2010-07-21T20:12:00.002+08:00

Among future present and past...which do you think is more important? some might say future some might say past...some even say all of them...well...to me...all of them are important, past is what makes your present, and what you do in present affect your future... but if you continue to tell yourself... that a negative future is coming soon, the it will....

when a people is over concern about their future, they lose sight of what is in front and what is behind, some even lose control of themselves. yet, they don't remember that what leads to that future is the past and what they doing now.

for example, if you eat a lot of fatty foots, and you think you are going to die of heart attack soon...

and if you continue to think you are going to die, you will. instead, try thinking why you think you will die, or why you will get heart diesese the first place, and think what you have to do, and you can change the future. some people say it is too late, nothing can be done, well...nothing is too late, even if you cant change the fact that you are dying you still can change the " you are dying soon" into "you are dying later".

i hope the person intented to read this..read this XD don't forever worry about the future...because the future is controlled by your present and your past, and last word for you is...try to improve yourselve, to avoid the negative future

他和她

2010-07-10T15:07:00.004+08:00

爱一个人，是为了拥有他吗?

对我来讲爱是两个人的事，

别人怎么说都无所谓，

只要她开心，我什么都可以。

朋友，跟情人不一样，

有共同点才会变成朋友，

认识久了有可能会变好朋友，

有可能的话，也许会变情人呢。

我有个朋友，他人格很好，很多人都喜欢他，想和他做朋友。而他的朋友当中有位女孩，认识不久就变情人了，可是见在不懂分了多少次，终于真真的分了。对，不用问，一定是那男的错。还错得很够力tim 。(我华语不好, >.< 不要笑我 :P)。那男的，虽然错，还很对不起她，但是当在一起时他根本没对不起她，也没想过要伤害她。最后，他已不爱她了，应为这样他才会跟她分手。

分手后，那男的希望能和她做回朋友。那女的就希望能和他从头在来过。不久后，那男的喜欢上另一位女孩(女生b)，他就想要追她，当那男的前女友(女生a)知道了，就搞了很多事，来prevent那男的追女生b。最后搞到了女生b ，那男的就觉的不能在追那女生b了。那天起那男的就很讨厌女生 a ，不想再和她做朋友，可是有可能那男的做错过，所以还有和女生a 联络，只是态度变了。然后，那男的从网上认识了一位女生(女生 c)，不久，就变了好朋友。然后呢，女生a也开始和女生c联络说了很多不应该说的事，也打扰到那女生 c。

之后，所发生的事，我不说了。最后我希望女生a，好好的生活，不要弄伤自己了，也不要伤害别人了。

A flower and a field of grass

2010-06-26T23:01:00.004+08:00

on a peaceful plains, there is grass

among the grass there is a flower,

the common grass is surrounded by its companions

and the rare flower is surrounded by the grasses,

standing tall the flower protected by many grass,

wind blows the flower and the grasses protect it.

but a particular grass protect the flower by entangle its roots with the flower roots,

and cover the flower's body with its own.

and wind continues to blow, and time continues to pass..

the particular grass's grasp started to weakened.. its body start to break,and the roots start to dry up...

but it continue to hold tight on the flower as it scare it will lose it,

as it looks down the grass sees many strong grasses down there waiting a chance to protect the flower...

and the particular grass looks up to the sky that haven't showered it for days...

continue to cover the flower the grass did

think again it didn't

just continued to hold on...

till the day when the flower doesn't need its again...

Last Heart(really last le this time :P)

2010-06-15T20:59:00.003+08:00

fuu...tired si me...whole day tired si me...8.30-5.50 den go pasar malam eat pan mee etc...fuuhh so full+tired...i read your blog... i really feel happy...and i knew my feeling was right....previously when i with my ex...i went vacation without her...i will feel miss her and unhappy...but...few days ago when i was at sg...i not only miss you and wished you were here, i also felt you miss me and wished i was there with you too...the feeling is very complicated, lonely but happy, sad but "exciting"(duno how to express that feeling). baby you always compared yourself to my ex...i will tell you and everyone here....GLADY QUEK JIEN YUEN IS 100 TIMES BETTER THEN MY EX!!!! SHE IS THE BEST!!!!(well for me la..for otr guys i duno bout them =.=)

baby...u ask me...will i scare you leave me...

actually i will...every time u say T or u say K or J(hate most btw) i also feel very uneasy...but...i duno wad i can do....complain and i sked you angry me, scold you? where she de scold oh...say to you? you dun believe also>.<...so...i decided write here lo...i really hurt...when u say their names or hang out with them...

finally....ofcourse i wan to say baby i love you~~my only last heart is for you and you only

Back to kl

2010-06-15T12:35:00.002+08:00

Long time bo post edi...now post agn hohoho

went somewhere far far away few days ago and came back ytd....everything i did there i miss you but cant sms you...but i am sure that is the same for you too :) because i can feel you are missing me too <3
at there the hotel wasn't finish and i think of when it finish can i come with you?
when i was eating crab and meehon i think of do you need me peel it for you?
when at the toy fair i saw the "toy" you like...and i think should i buy for you...
when looking at houses i think will you like this house or that house?
and when i sleep...i hope...that when i wake up the first person i see is you...
baby i know u are reading this...and i know u are laughing :)
dont laugh 1st read this carefully
BABY QUEK JIEN YUEN I LOVE YOU~~~~~AND I AM BACK!

lazy

2009-10-19T06:55:00.002+08:00

mid term attacks again, everyone is working hard to get a decent result, beside me :p

here blogging, slacking, lazying, doing nothing....lool tomorrow is the 1st exam Intro to Business. wish everyone good luck in the exam :)

lol now i even lazy to type anymore stuff...=.=

good luck in mid terms! bye

Wind

2009-10-08T09:09:00.002+08:00

leaves flying slowly and gently
the sing of wind is here
blowing through the trees up high
reminds me of you silky straight hair
the wind brought us here together
is the wind that i call fate
the wind that brought me to this paradise
the wind that made me fall for you
the wind that made all this happen
can also make it all away
now its time for myself
to make my own wind...and bring us further
and further....till the day...my wind stood still

Perfect Mooncake festival

2009-10-04T07:09:00.002+08:00

every year i will spend my mooncake festival at my grandparent's house....this year...suppose to be more special coz its a saturday and supposely many of my relative is there...but they didnt come in the end...and left with few of my relatives...but..although many of them didnt come....the one i wish to be with most...came with me...she ate dinner with me and my family....the 1st time she eats traditional chinese meal with me...is same day she meet my family...then we helped in preparing the barbecue...and we played candles and lantern for awhile...then we went to my parent's friend's house...lol the kids laugh at us when we reached there....they played us...u know? played us! not play with us! hahahaha...anyways some of them still cute as usual...it is the best mooncake festival i had...i hope that she also thinks the same way as me XD

Ls7 blogging....-Boring-

2009-09-30T13:22:00.002+08:00

Today is Wednesday.
gonna have quizes tmr...
wish every of my frens good luck here, especially my baby.
Hoho...actually i am in the ls7 now...soooooooooooo boring.
just now ate mc chicken at Mcd...zzzz....it just tasted like a..hmm....chicken.
haiz...so bored here..my baby beside me...lol....haiz...tonight need to study again...
i love my baby very muchie :)

asssigments

2009-09-18T05:55:00.003+08:00

raining season is here again...

ah...here we are the week 3 of sem 2 is about to end

soon we are having our quiz 1 again

assigments is coming at us like a machine gun

business is punching

psy is kicking

english is attacking

and cts is killing

lol...today will go study group with adam and yew ken

starting to feel tired and dont wanna go...

feel like resting for today then drive to sunway tommorow

so how? ofcoz still go to the study group la!

finish eng and psy assigments 1st den ask directions to sunway from adam

hohoho

budget problems

2009-09-13T18:07:00.001+08:00

hohoho..1st month of sem2....

1st time study business and nw almost bankrupt!! wooot

rm20 left for this month!!!! nw oni 11th sept...not even half...so how?

bread everday la hw.....if can try to get some money from the change that my parent ask me to buy stuff with hohoho...

a speech by monkey

2009-09-05T09:22:00.003+08:00

hmm..announcement here!

100th post will be continued on 200th post!

coz 101-199 is not that special at all..lol...

got a new hp! syoknya

friends aso very happy syoknya

me aso very happy syoknya

lol...why so many syoknya?

i aso duno dun ask me =.=

today is a saturday....ken ken mostly go pak tor with ky and hang out with family...

adam mostly going somewhere alone

thinking should follow him or not...

ownself duno why very tired....

yesterday soo sooo sooo blur at times squaare....always left things....

at one point my car almost got stolen...thank god lucky its still there..if not i am so freaking dead.

why am i soo blur ytd? maybe didnt sleep well the night before lol....

nvm nvm...rest well 2day hohoho 2molo go out with family again! den monday go college see selenar and chris lee again!

mission for now

1 change chris lee personality into jasmine wong

2 study harder(doubt i can do this =.=)

3 :)

friendship

2009-08-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

ben lai this post is suppose to be the continued form of 100th post...but...

now no mood edi....

come back from hong kong...expecting happy times with happy friends....

didnt expect stuff like this to happen again....

sem2 is about to start....hope things wont happen again....

but i know this kind of stuff we cant avoid it...

i hope...that there wont be a 2nd cherry.....

i hope our friendship can last....

please....i duwan a sequel to what we had in sem1....

100

2009-08-18T16:36:00.000+08:00

100th post of lastheart!!! wee!! time to give a speech....ahem....
i would like to thank you all for supportig me this whole time...
from guardian angel to holidays and nw the 100th post!!!
i need to thank my family for bringing me to this world
i like to thank my friends who supported me no matter what
the stuff we been through...
some came
some left...but i will still thank them...for making them who am i now...

ah yes....1st of all the friend i know for 18years(fake de only know for 3months++) this guy...always bully me =.= still eat cup mee till soo happy?? u see la one day i take that stupid smile off your face!!! grrr...

another friend that know for 18years..(only 5year++) this cute cute guy along with his cute cute gf is the cutest couple i ever seen in my life..along with his cute gf always zat me everytime since they know i like who =.=....si ken ken lcly de face PUNCH U OH!

this is a very veery very stubborn girl....her name is called glady...also known as blur blur....among us u can say she is the most innocent...and also the most blur..if wanna learn getting lost in almost anyplace you can learn from her :)

this guy de name is call boon yeng...his hair soo yeng that time but now no more sooner or later we will see his yeng yeng hair bak....he is our sailo among our 4brothers along with chen wah me and yan yew ken.(ps: the one beside him is just an effect he has no twin brother) :)

This guy de name is called Chen Wah! Dailo of us 4brothers...u see his hair...it is like he came out of an ANIME SHOW! he and daishou really sweet....although always hide it infront of us..but still can see very clearly :)

this girl is my 3shou...she is my 3lou(yew ken) de wife...both aso like kid....face like kid...cute like kid...hohoho....sometimes really close sometie aruge till crazy....lool

yong hao....aso known as alvis.....smartass lai de....gud at everything....romantic summor...really is one in a million! hohho....u see his face cool dao.....girls...faster line up or else hohoho....

ah....do u knw who is this? lol..i bet you dunoo leh....heheh...i leave it to the guy in this pic to tell u who is him lol...tips is...his eye really geng go 10000volt to fire at u lol guess u knw edi la hohooh

the help's king of the raod...EDWIN! he leh...always do stuff...to make us laugh....sometimes...he can..lool dirty jokes clean jokes or just plain retarded jokes he can make it up out of entire any conversation! really pro de dude

whoa.....son goku ah? no la its our very own bryant! hohooh c him like son goku de hairstyle geng bo? this is from genting lol....this guy...really strange de..he is really lame..but he also hates lame conversation o.ohahaha....but still a nice guy :)

saw yong chyi(left) also known as milo...she is like a minimarket you can get all kind of stuff from her...snacks tissue cookies choclates watever! always soo kind de milo will give it her frens must remember to belanja her eat good food nex time and the one on the right....blur blur

O.o who is this?? hmm....eheheheh...her name is nicole! i have nothing to say about her =.= besides that when we play truth or dare she seem to be the most energetic 1...lol...i leave the rest to a guy that is my fren for 18years edi de...hoohoh

this girl call purplelyn lol ahahaha...her name is czelyn! queen of lame!!! hahahahaha also queen of the raod....hmm...lazy say it all out la just say her queen of everything ba =.=

and ofocz still got

jill

ron

fredrick

christina

yan ying

kit yeng

sin yi

norman

wee lun

kevin

leechee

and whoever i missed

THIS IS THE 100TH POST!!!!

wakakkakakakakakakakakakakakakkaka

(to be continued in 101st post)

holiday

2009-08-17T10:56:00.000+08:00

oh yeah...one more post and i will reach 100th post hohoho.....
now....it is holiday finnaly lol...honestly tell u i hate this holiday....
2weeks of sheer boringness and need to babysit for the last 5day walao eh...
this couldn't be worse can it?
lol....but..in this two weeks time it is the time i do what i do best!
THINK!!!! lol...self improvement....never done it before..hope can pass this lame test...=.=
haiz....looking forward to my 100th post!! remember to comment it ya you guys!!

One

2009-08-16T07:25:00.000+08:00

One....a very special number...it is the smallest number that exist...
during countdown....it is the line.for an end of something and the start of another
when we are still in school we compete to get number 1 and not number 2 3 or 9
it is the smallest but it is also the most important....when we count we always start with one
when we countdown we always end with one
it is the most important number among the 9 numbers...as it symbolizes the start and also the end

The 2nd Round

2009-08-10T17:03:00.000+08:00

today i had cp and moral studies....someone lost her hp...haiz....
the time is coming soon..for the finals of the finals to end....
Finite Maths...the last one on wednesday~
then its off to genting woot!
before that they all going to bbq hope they will enjoy it....
hmm....nothing much to write here lol....
nearing to the 100th post :)
really hope i can reach that in time~ lol....

first strike and the ben monkey

2009-08-08T05:53:00.000+08:00

weee...today is the 1st day of the finals...eng and moral is going to be tested!!! friends who is taking this two subjects!!! GUD LUCK!!!! lets end this 1st strike together! woot!...:) and those that just ended exams congratulations :)
from: a really ben monkey

Another boring post

2009-08-07T10:32:00.000+08:00

The grey sky above the sky
gloomy felt by me
it symbolizes rain
but also not...
wind blow swiftly past the trees
time seems to follow it as it hit me on my face...
doesn't hurt....only felt...
what becomes of the sky
when the rain and wind passes by
what can i do?
when i am still in love with you?

Last Heart 2.0

2009-08-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

how long has it been since i posted the post last heart
sooo many things happened...
now i am in college edi...lol
3months lu...
1st semester gone lu.....
i remember the sentence i prefer to use alot
"what can i do, when i am still in love with you?"
hahaha.....didn't expect...to be using it again now
i also rememember that i will go same college as my gang
but nw? all fly north south west east lol....
that is just life.....
weee~
welcome to my place
the place where the last of my heart lies

tong hua?

2009-07-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

lol....how long bo touch this blog liao
these day hear back tong hua...
really like it lol
suites my feeling now...
lol...
if you guys duno the song well try to hear it and feel the lyrics XD lol

Exist

2009-07-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah!! the most difficult week have passed!

YEAH!!! now all it left is the damn eng presentation, Cp presentation

and the FINALS!!!

after that...semester 1 will not exist again! wakakaa.....=.=

lol...how can it not exist? soo many things happened?

sweet,sour,bitter,spicy?

what have we not been through?

what have not we "tasted"?

lets walk the last step together to end sem1...

and keep our heads forwad and march into sem2

Birds,fish and me

2009-07-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

birds rule the sky

and fishes rule the sea

wind drive the birds to move...

tides lets the fish to swim

birds fly gracefully above the sky

fish swim swiftly across the sea

what if the bird were to lose their wings?

what if the fish were to lose their fins?

birds wont fly

and fish wont swim...

they are alive

but their soul is dead

how can birds fly without wings?

how can a fishes swim without fins?

how can i live without you?

Circles

2009-07-23T08:03:00.000+08:00

Seasons come and seasons go

Birds will fly and birds will land

Things that come

That will go

A line that will start

Eventually will stop

There is nothing that have a beginning

That doesn't have an end.

When things warm up

Eventually will cool down

When things cool down

Eventually it will warm up

in a circle you find no beginning

that is why there is no end

if there is a line that have a beginning

and also have an end

join them together

and you will get

something that doesn't have a beginning

and something that doesn't have an end

something that would withstand the test of time

something that fits the description "forever"

something that is called a circle

1st time

2009-07-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

ish....finnaly mind more clear XD woot!!!

lol..wanna say sorry to someone...i think i said stg i shouldn't say...lol

and for those who read my latest post in my private blog...i am sorry i wrote that when my mind nt that clear...

2molo going to have maths quiz lu!! lets do our best together :)

lol 1st time going to write this here hopefully the last XD(i duwan sot again =.=)

27th day....since that day :P

Rainbow

2009-07-21T09:11:00.000+08:00

The symbol of courage

the symbol of flames

burning deep inside us

keeping our spirits high

this is the head of the 7

and its name is red

Sounds like a fruit

looks like a fruit

but it is not a fruit

some might like it

some might not

you would not want to see it in a porridge

and its name is called orange

welcome the 3rd

which someone admire

loyalty occurs

when you talk about its desire

royalty loves it

and so do we

as it symbolizes power and mellow

we shall call the 3rd a yellow

oh my gosh

do not envy!

because its the colour of nature

calming our feelings

cleaning our minds

enjoy the soothing scene

provided by it the green

Freeze as they say

because it symbolizes cool

and it symbolizes sky

and this is where the 7 lives

do you have a clue?

that it is named the blue?

hiding among the 7 is 6

no one knows a lot about it

always supporting its friends

someone even misunderstood it for being the 7

i ain't lying it is one of the rainbow

and its name is called indigo

under of them is it

roses are red

and it is blue

always appear in love poems

just to tie the knot

hopefully they will end up in a banquet

full of it the violet

done with the 7 but where is the 8?

does it really exist?

who knows

no one will see the 8

as it not only belong to the 7

but also belong to all of us

wanna know what is it?

i let you know

visit my private blog those who able

and those unable i am sorry

and this is the end of my story :)

A crazy day

2009-07-17T20:42:00.000+08:00

lol...2day played dota inside lab...lol..funny la...i laughed like crazy while team with edwin and fightwith alvis...then do the freaking intro all over again...=.= already sot sot...den soo hungry summor so i leave it to do later...and go eat...den go eat at mamak again...drink ho ho ho again :)

den eat nasi goreng again....yew ken drive and fetch me and cherry along...we took cherry to the bukit jalil station and it jam soo badly that we sang a retarded song called kai mou shou(cantonese)! =.=.....den zilian inside yk car...and cherry aso sot sot edi laugh like crazy....

reach home edi sleep 2hour wake up d duno why and kicked my bed for no reason =.=.....

today really one crazy day =.=

peace once again...

2009-07-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

peace returns once again! god i love peace.......but how long can it last? 1week?2weeks? no one knows for now lets enjoy the fun of peace and enjoy the suffering of meeting assigments deadline and quizzes =.=....

I want to breath

2009-07-15T22:00:00.001+08:00

quiz....exams....assigments....presentations.....please...juz gimme time to breath will you!!! argh!!! oh yea~ done with my moral project....now left is....=.= sleep!!! wakakka...nitez guys~

another day at HELP

2009-07-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

wee~ another day at help

another day full of plentiful sup prises and today theme is....EMBARRASSING

left both of my phones in my mum car...how shit can that be?=.=

den sing at the corridor...omg...that is soo...shit...=.=....

lol....2molo i wonder what will happen? =.=

我想说的

2009-07-12T19:20:00.000+08:00

我与你的约定

那爱的感觉

如今你还记得吗

我们走过的日子

甜蜜却安静

望着天空的燕子

我，想你了

从你被他烦

到大家的心都不在连在一起

之前对你做的

没想过要你看见

对你的承诺

我只想一个一个地实现

以前的你,总是你了解我,多过我了解你

现在的我..只是想..好好的了解在读这post的你

到了现在的我

还能做什么

除了向前走

人人都说,情人一定要一起走

但是能一起走到老

到底有多少?

永远在一起

我们听得多了

到底有多少情人能"永远在一起"?

答案是一对也没有

"永远爱你"这句话是假的

"永远不想失去你"这句话才是真的

Jams...

2009-07-12T08:50:00.000+08:00

Lol...traffic jam...den human jam.....den brain jam.....=.= stupid jam keep coming since yesterday....sienz....

so what to do this fine day? ofcoz get into more traffic jam

hopefully less human jam...

and please....no more BRAIN JAM!!!

Today will be going out with family~

zz....adam and the others are at camp...

milo is busying somewhere

cherry is alone somewhere....

yew ken is hanging out with his gf somewhere...

Chris missing in action...probally sleeping

everyone from my highschool days....also missing in action...probally in campus

and ofcourse..."someone" is having trouble sleeping....wonder what is her problem...hmm...

Sunflowers

2009-07-11T09:05:00.000+08:00

Whenever it goes left

We go left

Whenever it goes right

We go right

Always following you

Always looking at you

When you are gone

We sleep

When you come back

We smile

Without you there is no us

Without you our friends wont survive

Without you we dont have any food

you make up the 1st 3word of our name

Just like you make up the first 3part of our life

Forever we follow you

Forever we look at you

Forever we will smile at you

As you are the Sun

As we are the Sunflowers

Happiness

2009-07-11T08:54:00.000+08:00

You as a friend

Ordinary yet somehow extraordinary

Never leave us never abandon us

Giving nothing but happiness to us all

Living among the retards as we are :P

Eternally joyful

Ever Cheerful

Closing the doors of sadness

Housing all of our happiness

Eventually we'll see

Every inch of our happiness is living in your heart

3rd post in lab :)

2009-07-10T10:00:00.001+08:00

Wakakaka.....i am in a lab next to the class i am suppose to be in lol....kk now lets c...what to write...hmm....ah yes.....i am sitting behind of milo and milo is sitting beside yan ying....beside me is glady bag and beside glady bag is glady :) today adam and the others are going to camp T.T sad i aso wanna go :( but i knw i cant so...what's the point?

Lol Rins if you see this next post will be the post you've been waiting for :D

i gtg lu bye

2day

2009-07-09T21:16:00.000+08:00

Lol....Drove to College 2day....

"something" happened 2day

found out stg stupid 2day..

used rm18 at secret recipe 2day T.T

give yew ken rm20 2day (pierced my heart T.T)

Give rm3 to czeelyn for parking ticket 2day (lol...this still ok)

Done math test 2day..(I HATE MATRIX)

And ofcoz.......did many stupid things 2day :)

Lame =.=

2009-07-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

. 被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
2. 請老實的回答每一個問題。
3. 不行擅自塗改題目。
4. 寫完請點8位小朋友，不可不點。
5. 點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。
6. 那8位小朋友填完問卷，必須把問卷寄回給你填問卷的人。

＊＊＊＊--------------個人題 - 10 題 --------------＊＊＊＊

01 你叫什么: RyanFMC
02 你的綽號：Ryan
03 你的血型：B
04 你的星座：Pisces
05 你是男還是女：Male
06 你幾歲: 18
07 你住哪裡：Sg Long
08 你現在的學校 : HELP
09 你有沒有手機 : stupid question
10 承上，那是多少: err...2?

＊＊＊＊------------ 朋友題 - １０題 --------------＊＊＊＊

↘11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）: Yew Ken
↘12 你最討厭的人（限１個）：Hahahaha myself =.=
↘13 你最正的女性朋友（限１個）: stupid question...ofcoz her
↘14 你最帥的男性朋友（限１個）: Adam
↘15 什麼樣的女生你最討厭：The ones that lie to me
↘16 什麼樣的男生你最討厭：The ones that lie to me
↘17 你的好朋友有誰（不限）：Too many to count
↘18 你經常和哪位朋友出去: Uncountable
↘19 你身邊最憨的朋友（限１個，不能自己）: Err....Duno lol
↘20 你身邊最可愛的朋友（限１個）: Lol this i no need answer you all also know who lol

＊＊＊＊-----------感情題 - １５題 --------------＊＊＊＊

❤21 你有沒有喜歡的人：No need answer
❤23 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半：Lol anytime~
❤24 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過：3...
❤25 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過: 1...
❤26 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋有：1 (i dun even knw it count or nt)
❤27 你現在有另一半嗎: Nope
❤28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：Tell him i nt gay sorry
❤29 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎 : NO WAY!
❤30 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人: Lol...stupid question..i like her becoz i like her lo =.=
❤31 你和另一半牽手過嗎：Nope
❤32 你的另一半抱或親過嗎: Nope
❤33 你跟異性牽手過嗎：Got
❤34 是誰，你們什麼關係: mother and sister :P
❤35 現在有人在追你嗎：Nope

＊＊＊＊-------------- 混合題 - １０題 --------------＊＊＊＊

36 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣 ?: Ask them Why
37如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：those are nt my friend
38 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會: Goodbye my friend
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎：nope
40 你上課認真嗎 : Depends on mood
41 你功課好不好: Some good some bad...
42 你开电腦都在幹麻: Music always come 1st, den MSN...etc
43 你的即时通有多少个同性: Many...
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性: Many~

＊＊＊＊-------------- 兇手題 - 10題 --------------＊＊＊＊

45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：Kelvin( Dmn u)
46 这個人對你好不好：ok ok
47 這個人是你的誰：Friend
48 你有喜歡過這個人嗎：what kind of like? =.=
49 你們認識多久了：1 year and more
50 這個人是怎樣的人：Misery lol
51 這個人正／帥嗎：Crazily Yeng =.=
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过：I nt gay
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼辦：I NT GAY!!!

＊＊＊＊--------------- 聯想題 - １０題-------------＊＊＊＊

56 說到正妹你會想到誰：Stupid question
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰：Adam
58 說到憨你會想到誰: No one
59 說到痴你會想到誰：Edwin
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰："her" :P
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰：Gang!
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：Yan Ying
63 說到傻子你會想到誰: yew ken
64 說到笑點低你會想到誰：duno lol
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰 : Old Cherry

＊＊＊＊--------------- 學校題 - 11題 --------------＊＊＊＊

66 你的班導是誰: Don't have...
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個：Not fixed...
68 你最喜歡的老師是誰：Ms Jasmine and Ms Geetha
70 你的英文好嗎：Okok le...
71 你的體育好嗎：weak
72 你的数学好么：nt bad
73 你喜不喜歡你的校長：i duno who is him or her
74 你的學校好看嗎：love it
75 你的班級是：Foundation Class...
76 你的班級在幾樓：underground

＊＊＊＊====点到名者请回~~~谢谢+麻烦你们了~====＊＊＊＊

1.Glady
2.Rins
3.Adam
4.Alvis
5.Yew Ken( i knw u wont do it)
6. Czeelyn
7.Cherry

8.Milo

＊＊＊＊====E N D ~====＊＊＊＊

Trust

2009-07-08T19:03:00.000+08:00

first of all...i would like to say....WHAT THE HECK???
What in the shitty world is going on here?
then i would like to say that i am not suppose to be IN this shitty problem
ok...and i know she also dont wanna get drag into this too....
so can we please stop this shit?
if someone dont want follow you
just let them be la
if someone dont wanna fren with someone let them be lah
this problem consist of 2people and no one should be dragged into this
especially "her".....
Dont go past the line seriously.....
i dont want we cant even be frens...

Health

2009-07-07T09:01:00.000+08:00

Hate it lar wei....Why my health so cacat de??? =.=....always restricting me from doing the things i want.....lol.....since young my health oredy not gud...maybe becoz i was born too early? =.= i was suppose to be born on april...but i was soo excited to come into this wonderful world that i make my mum suffer during 21st febuary...and i end up being born on 2.13am on 22nd feb 1991.....lol....since young always give problems to family....i cant even recall how many times i stayed inside the hospital =.=......haiz......shitty health...really need to do something about it...

Another day of conflicts =.=

2009-07-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

lol....typical...always conflict between brain and heart....=.=when driving....mum say park here....but my heart wan park there....den end up getting scolded coz of unable to make desicions...at college also happens the same thing.....lol..do maths question...heart say do alone...brain say copy other ppl answer =.=cacat.....there it goes again....the battle between the heart and the brain....only place where heart and brain can cooperate easily is during exams =.=....lol

Four Seasons

2009-07-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

Chilling colours fill the sky

Santa getting ready to fly

Particles of white filled the lands

Trees slumber while river sleeps

I sat near the fireplace with you

just like the winter snow

when they touch each other

they stick together

even when they melt...

they will still become a single drop of water

Flower blooms with 7colours

birds busy making their homes

Winds of Spring blow through the newly awaken trees

The scent of new year is near

We stroll the park together

you and i together

just like a bee and a flower

without flowers bee wont survive

and without bee flowers wont be colourful

Sun warms the earth at this time

Skies with clouds covers the entire area

Gentle rain pour down once awhile

most of the time is sunny days

happy days

this is when we hang out at the beach

just like the melodies of the pouring rain

forever in harmony

forever in symphony

Leaves start to wither

Oranges and red filled the scene

The winds differ from the spring

Blowing in a different direction

Slowly as time passes by

We sat at the porch

looking at the yellow leaves blown by the wind

Reminds me of us

following the flow of time

forgetting the past

forgetting the future

and let wind blow us wherever it wants to

Days make weeks

And week make months

Months make seasons

And seasons make years

Spring we sing

Summer we play

Fall we admire

And winter we rest

4 Seasons make a year

and you is what made the current me

forever changing

forever moving....

but just like the four season....

no matter how different they are...

no matter how they change

but in the end there is still only four season

Spring

Summer

Fall

And Winter

How i Choose the girl i like

2009-07-04T12:14:00.001+08:00

Lol....another post=.=.....lol...hmm...lets c...the girl i like....

1st of all must have good personality!!!

Personality

-Spunky

-Not a glamorgirl

-Not too bossy

-Not too open minded

-Not too close minded

-Obviously must treat me well la lol

Appearence

-Not too tall

-Not too short

-30% pretty

-60% cute

-not to slim

-not to fat

-spec or no spec doesnt matter

-preferbally long hair

lol.....i think this is what i can think of....=.= lol...no use think of it also...because i am nt searching for a girl with the above traits anymore :D...just to post it let someone c =.=....

Records i Broke with "her"

2009-07-04T11:54:00.001+08:00

1) Sing a song infront of 15ppl to her =.=

2)sms with a person longer den 1hour

3)sms more then 50sms to one person in less then half a week =.=

4)Make a poem of a person TWICE

5)let a girl touch my msn and edit name pm etc for the 1st time =.=

6)played a girl msn for 1st time...

7)tabao for a girl that is nt from my family for the 1st time....

8)1st time planned so hard for a bday party

9)1st time WILL nervous while planning for a bday party

10)1st time make/buy a present with someone name on it

11)1st time receive a 'Gift' from the bday girl on her bday

12)1st time take lrt with her and friends

13)1st time take lrt alone to her hse

14)1st time excort someone to a bday party

15)1st time felt soo happy on another person de party

and many many more....lol nah...this is all the record i broke that have stg to do wit glady...=.= happy bo?

An Unexpected Poem: The Special One

2009-07-04T07:20:00.000+08:00

Big talk is not only what you know

Losing is not for you that is what i know

U dont know the true power of my words

Reaping trough the deep deep hearts of thy

Big talk i do best

Luring you to do that poem

U are really a special one

Revise my poem of yours twice

Giving you a record that never been broken

Long not when this poem made

A poem made just for you

Doing things never been done, just because

You are the very special one

我的心

2009-07-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

天恢恢的

充满着乌云

我站在那被森林包围着的空地

白白的望着天空

我的身体在

我的灵魂也在

除了我脆弱的心

不懂它去了那里

不懂还会不会回来

找了天

找了地

找了那么久

也没找回我的心

一天一天慢慢过

到了最后

心不见了

剩下空空的我

站在这空空的地

望着空空的天

by far the most retarded post i ever made...=.= nia....please give it high marks...1st time use chinese post nia >.< (1-10)

A Story

2009-07-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

This is a story i once promised to cherry...now oni got inspiration =.=.....lol and really hope you all understand the meaning of it.....

11.45pm 31st december 1999

Jake hugged Chloe tightly and stares into the sky on top of a hill...

Chloe asked jake:" Does forever really exist?"

Jake:"nope."

Chloe:"then how long will your love last?"

Jake just smilled and said:"my love will last as long as you believe i will love you."
Chloe replied:" what if i believe that you will love me forever?"

Jake:"hmm...then i will have to say.....

BOOM BAM BOOM BAM!!! the fireworks exploded and it is a new millenium...

Chloe:"what did you say just now? I cant hear you."

Jake:"heheheh you know i wont say the same thing twice..heehee."

Chloe:"Stupid Jake!!!" she chased Jake around the hill....

2.34pm 30th june 2008

Chloe and Jake sat in a coffee shop and talked

Chloee:"It has been 8years since we together..."

Jake:" yup....8years..." Jake wanted to take something out of her pocket when

Chloe said:" I think...it is time for us to stop..."

Jake stuffed the thing back into his pocket and

Chloe continued:"I am really sorry but i dont believe in forever..." She stood up and ran away covering her face..when she is about to cross the road...she heard a car horned...and she saw a car coming at her...She closed her eye and shouted....then she felt someone pushed her...When She opened her eyes....she saw Jake laying on the ground...she rushed towards him and cried...

She kept said:"Noo....please....noooo.." Jake faintly open his eyes and took out a small card...he then handed the card to Chloe along with a box... Chloe opened the card and there wrote

'I Wont love you forever...but I will love you till the day i die.'

Chloe cried then she opened the box and saw it was a ring...Jake was about to propose to her...but this happened...Jake died before he got sent to the hospital...

Lol...1st time...1st time created a so called gan dong love story...i duno HOW gan dong is it..so rate it please on the scale of 1-10 1lowest 10highest...btw cherry this is for you :D

Another of my stupid poem =.=

2009-07-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

Bold as what we see
Raging what we feel
Your leadership brought us here
After the eternal light
Notorious as you roam the night
Till the sky turn blue,you will roam the seven seas

Little as we know
Interior of your heart
More then never we know about you

Gliding through what we know as fate
Under the clear blue sky
Altering the winds of flames
Never to leave us
Going nowhere away from us

Silent wind blow through your deep ears
Zings through as our words of heart go through your ears
Everlastingly exist within the boundaries of us
Nothing to come between us
Giving nothing but ear to us

Party Over Study starting

2009-06-28T13:44:00.000+08:00

lol wee....party over edi lu....after the supprising party for her during friday...and the wierd but somehow fun de party yesterday...now it is sunday~ time to think what to do about the freaking maths assigment =.=....moral de article review~ den moral presentation...walao eh....time to put on my working gloves nia...i dont wanna retake any subjects T.T

Thank You

2009-06-27T07:40:00.001+08:00

Lol 1st of alll sorry for posting this blog at such a late time...suppose to post it yesterday but really really very tired....soo.forgive me~ :)
1st of all Thank you guys....really
this birthday plan is the largest thing i ever did...
team A
team B
yada yada yada....to the slightest detail you all helped me supported me....and gave really really gud opinions
lol glady sorry it is time to curi your idea XD

To Cherry: You are the one that make all of this happen.....without you....yesterday wont be that many people...without you...the party wouldnt be a party....the card you really really put alot of effort into making it....i know among all of us you are the one that "gan jeong" the most! Thank you XD

To Bryant: Lol...brother....you really did it man! if team B doesnt have you in it...seriously we might end up in just an "after mid term party" XD....lol....and the ideas u gave me...really and all the things u did bringing me out.....really really thank you.....

To Alvis: you naughty little brat!!! lol the song i sang orignally was just solo for fun!!! didnt expect i will accept your idea of singing it to her! lol...anyways....i didnt regret it....thank you for giving me this idea...thank you for styling my hair while waiting for the cake...thank you for pushing me infront to sing...thank you.

To Adam: Lol....i dunno what i can say to you =.=.....lol beside thank you....really you really helped me alot...during the planning process u just say yes to everything i asked you to do....even at the party you even say yes when i ask you to do anything lol...thank you for saying yes....thank you for fetching her home...thank you for being my brother XD

To Nicole: Lol....you...hahaha...thank you for supporting this idea thank you for helping out while buying the cake, thank you for folding my shirt >.<>

To Milo: Lol.....Lol....LOL!!!! without you she might not come!!! thank you for your perfect acting...maybe you should go to TVB you even persuaded me to believed wat you said =.=....lol thank you for bringing her in....thank you for everything you did.....thank you

To Czelyn: when i was sitting infront of adam, and i was playing with him...you suddenly said something that totally made my mind BLANK! you said you sing the song for me lol....really thank you..that song gave me some courage to sing that song to her...that song makes me feel more calm...really thank you....

To Everyone Else: this post really long nia...=.= hope you all dont get bored reading this....thank you all for coming yesterday and thank you all for the perfect acting!!! thank you all for creating this party a reality!! REALLY THANK YOU ALL!!!!

And
To Glady: Lol....thank you for the message you send me....now you know why i didnt post this post earlier. I know what happened to your past, i understand...lol....go check your mail i have replied your message. thank you for coming today XD i was sooo scared that day when you say you are not coming because of cherry....lol really dunno wat to say..besides thank you

Mid Term ENDS tommorow

2009-06-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

Tommorow is the day nia....finnaly the dreadfull mid term ends!!! woot!! time to party soon....but....2nd quiz....presentations....assignments...and FINALS!!!! all coming near liao....zzz lol nvm nvm party 1st study later!!! YEAH!!!

Chee Cheong Gai

2009-06-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

lol goes to chee cheong gai with my frens 2day...lol nice....remember what my parents told me about it...lol how they meet, how they pak tor =.=.....lol....sweeeet~lol haiz...cherry treats her "brother" sooo gud lo lol hahaa.....sienz...become adam didi ....haiz.....sienz ah!!! lol...anyways..chee cheong gai....really really memorable...if nt for chee cheong gai i might not be even writing THIS POST!!! lol

My grandfather

2009-06-22T19:41:00.001+08:00

Once there is a kid...who is at coma in an hospital for 9months...his grandfather although old keeps visit him everyday via public transport...then the kid got out of the hospital...his parents was busy working and so is his grandma...so left with his grandpa play with him...bring him go shopping at the streets and bring him go yam cha~ that kid remembers the tea his grandpa always used to drink....the kid remember the pao his grandpa use to eat....he remembers the time when his grandpa bring him everywhere to play..parks playground everywhere.....when the kid becomes a teen he still treat him very well...the kid's grandpa advised him....he always folow what he says...but during january 2008...he left....with the sweet memories living inside the kid....although the grandpa is gone...he will still live inside the kids heart....and that kid is me....

Middle of exam

2009-06-22T18:21:00.000+08:00

Lol...finished two exams....now left the two hardest! lol....hmm..what to do besides....FIGHT!!! come on guys!! LETS BRING MATHS AND COPUTING DOWN NIA!!! sienz...i really sot jor =.=.....2molo maths exam...still play play in this blog.....zzz lol...XD bluah bluah bluah....lalala~......bye

Friends

2009-06-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

Alone in the darkness

Dawn he smile

At night he frowns

Mourning over something that he had lost

Tonight he feels the loneliness

Housing right in his heart

As if no one ever knows

Minutes gone slow as hours

Clashing winds blow through the sleeping woods

Hours gone slow as days

Our heart understood

Our heart also feels

Nothing is more important as you

You are our heart

U are our soul

Even though we have misunderstandings

Nothing will seperate us apart...as we are friends

Fruits

2009-06-19T11:17:00.000+08:00

Orange is sweet

Orange is sour

Orange is what we all desire

Making us happy Making us laugh

Happiness is what orange all about

Orange is the Jester of our fruits

Chickoo is cool

Chickoo is quiet

Chickoo is also known as Ciku

silent as always

alone as always

but when we need him always

heal us always

Ciku is the heart of us fruit

Kiwi is kind

Kiwi is rich

Spending money for us

Making happiness for us

in game she treat us like kings

in reality everyone treats her like a princess

Kiwi is defitantely the little princess of us, the fruits

Lemon is cute

Lemon is strange

Lemon is the only one that can reach

where all of us could'nt

He is sharp

He is fast

He is the Eagle of us, the fruits

Mango is here

Mango they fear

Always found in a party quest

leveling up like an agile rat!

he is wise

he is "pro"

he is the commander of us,the fruits

Melon we see

the largest is he

knowing nothing

fighting everything

trying to be a "tanker"

so that we can fight them easily

Melon is the Defender of us, the fruits

Durian is hard

Durian is new

kind and caring

fast and chasing

she is the special one

the special fruit that we all put our hopes upon

Durian the Angel of us, the fruits

As you can see

Fruit is always happy

living in a fantasy world is we

with HP infront of us

we will fight in the name of funny

giving us joy and giving you laughter

when you read this you will know

how us, the fruits are

in a game called maple

Special

2009-06-19T10:34:00.000+08:00

1st time use lab de computer to make a post...lol...just finished our presentation for quite awhile....now alvis and his frens are presenting as i am writing this post.....lol finally able to finsh this stupid but special persentation, and now need to study for the crazy mid term and after that...go to a special party that i am looking forward to....and hopefully get that special answer that i always wantet to know either it is bad or good...Lol now alvis have finished their presentation. and i also should stop this special post now...

Heart

2009-06-17T20:45:00.000+08:00

i know why u think guys changes his mind like a girl changes clothes..i remember what i told you last time...maybe during that time i might already am your "him" or maybe not.

but i do know that is one of the reason why you think a guy changes his mind like a girl changes clothes..but that time i am using my mind to make decisions..i follow my friend advice and neglected my heart...the day before your 1st visit to kbox..i have already know who i really like and who i really want to see always being happy...you might be right about guys changes their mind like a girl changes clothes...but....now its nt my mind controlling me...its my heart....do you think guys will change their heart like girls changes clothes?

The truth i want to know so badly is i want to know is what am i to you?how do you feel about me?or am i that "him" before or now?i heard many rumours but i dont know which one is the truth..whatever it is..dont hurt yourself just trying to answer this question....i will wait...till the day you can give me a yes or a no..before that day comes i will treat you as i always been treating you...i am sorry....anyways...gud luck in your presentation and your mid term too~

ADAM! CHERRY! MILO!Byant!EVERYONE ELSE THAT I DIDNT MENTION!DO YOUR BEST IN MID TERM YA!!!!

(ps: the everyone include you too yew ken =.=)

Words from my heart

2009-06-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

first....i would like to say i am sorry, if i startled you with the things i said....maybe i am rushing too fast...but i know that you found out who i like, and i dont know who is your "him" is...I have a feeling that "him" is me, maybe that feeling is right, maybe that feeling is wrong, either ways i still need to say this since you not willing to hear me...

I know you always say all guys is the same...i dont know wat you mean by that but i do know u have been hurt very badly in your last relationship.But I want you to give me a chance to let me prove that not all guys are the same, gimme a chance to prove to you i am not going to hurt you in anyway...I hope that i can be the guy that have the 4 conditions, tall is confirmed got edi, not lazy this i dont know, and so is flirt and romatic....If can i would like to use 1 of my wish now, i wish that you will tell me the truth....No matter what happens I just want you to be happy, you can ingore what i say here....I just hope you will read this....

Strange day...

2009-06-15T22:17:00.000+08:00

Moody day....lame day..boring classes....and stupid public transport....delay here delay there finish class at 4pm reach home at 7....haiz....wanted to stop by jusco to get something and repair stg..but feel too tired so go home rest...open maple...den someone joke with me...i end up angry and scolded her lol...haiz...den someone tell me something strange again.....things is about to turn strange....i know something very bad or good is coming...

Heart and Brain

2009-06-14T18:05:00.000+08:00

lol 2day family day....lol and aso study group day at alvis house.....heart told me to go alvis hse....brain told me go for family day~ i picked family day ofcourse...but in the end...i went home at 3pm...and my dad went out =.= lol...and soo from this day onwards...the battle between my heart and my brain continues~

Scary Movie

2009-06-13T14:29:00.000+08:00

Lol ytd went movie with the HELP gang....not the best movie though...didnt get to sit with her till the last part...but it was nice..even though it was just for a few minutes...after that we went to the arcade...lost to yew ken in a shooting game...in less den 2minutes summor =.= den played racing with glady they all.. supprisingly glady is a gud driver...almost lose to her XD but in the end manage to win her and win another wish :D

~wee~

2009-06-06T15:02:00.000+08:00

lol...alone at home for 2days now...relative came here to stay with me for one day...lol...tommorow quiz lu.....prepared to die~ my pc and lappy noob lai de prepare to be thrown away~ my heart aso strange strage de....prepare to fly away~

Feelings for you

2009-06-05T19:19:00.000+08:00

Lol...This feeling for you, dunno when it started...dont know why it started. I wanted to tell you this but because of somethings that happened i cant.

sometime i ask myself what will happen if i really have told you?

We might not be friends?

i get killed by two of your siblings?

If what i said will hurt you I promise you this wont come out of my mouth...I will wait...wait till the day you can really accept me, till the day i can just come up to you and say.......

Y O U

2009-05-30T16:44:00.000+08:00

by the time you read this you have oredy finished ur ss essay.

Given with the seed of Hope

Loving everyone with the kindess of your heart

After the light that covers the darkness of man

Do you know you are special?

You are the one that they call as the kindest of them all

Quietly sitting below the moonlight

Under the dark blue sky you said

Even if the sky will fall i wont leave your side

Kept in my heart your words

Just in my heart will those words live

Indefitnately, Continuesly

Even if the day when you were gone

Nothing will be able to take those kindness away from me and from you

You shine brighter than the moon in the sky

Unique doesnt define you

Elegent is way below you

No One is as special as Y O U.

Restart

2009-05-30T07:28:00.000+08:00

lol...who press the restart button? why my problems that have been solve ages ago came bak one by one? and more complicated then before! oh my god....what to do?? WHAT TO DO?? lets leave it to fate ba...=.=

The wonderful world of HELP

2009-05-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

1)Lecturers

a)Ms Annie khaw- Teaches english, Although nt the best but at least wont fall alsleep in her class

b)Mr. Siva- Teach computing principles, coolest lecturer i seen so far, he is so funny

c)Ms Getha- Teaches moral, teaches pretty well i can understand easily

d)Ms Selina Ong- Teaches study skills, fun teacher can communicate with her easily

e)Ms Jasmine- Teaches maths, not the best, but without her i might fail my maths >.<

2)Heaven and Hell concept

a) college is hell

b) above college(which is all the food stores is) is heaven

3)Layout

a) consist of 3areas, main block, Wisma Help, and KPD( i am in main block taking FIA)

b)main block is just a long long long corridor.....

c) no idea what wisma help and kpd looks like :P

and.........

4)Society

a)smart dudes pretty gals....whatever you name it you can find it in help

b)SUPER MULTICULTURAL you can hear all kind of language here including Kazak!(main language is english lah....)

What can i say? i picked this college and i wont regret it...loool but the ppl here are nice though :D great to be frens with them

The Sign

2009-05-19T21:46:00.000+08:00

Well.....the busiest week of my life has juz ended....the event was fun for the committee but not so fun for the guest...college life back to what it is suppose to be again......YAY

Warning: College life is dangerous for lazy people

Somethings that shouldn't happen

2009-04-22T20:29:00.000+08:00

Didn't expect finnaly i able to forget her....suppose to be a good thing...smooth life happy life...then i have to "like" a friend of mine...which we have been friends for about 6years now...she is going to penang soon, i feel like telling her but....well this is a things that should not be happening! so...for our friendship sake....i didnt tell her....

Then there is the overprotective incident....I cant write it here...but if you are one of my friends i guess u should knw what is it....this is the lamest thing that could have happen to a guy....seriously...

This 2 things seriously shouldn't have happened...

Things that happened

2009-04-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

Lol didnt touch this blog long time edi....just post something so that it wont be "dead" ...i got my P now...norman taking the test tommorow,things heat up, things cool down....stuff come and stuff goes, freedom gone, happiness gone,sadness worsen and life gone harder

Next important thing

2009-04-19T14:42:00.000+08:00

lol...meet with my ex yesterday XD said hi to her and i dont feel strange! finally i am able to let go of her!!! YES!!!! alright now on to the next important thing!

The dream that i have

2009-03-05T12:31:00.000+08:00

Lol..2day i have a very special dream...nt that special actually i have this kind of dream all the time...=.= but this 1 i wan it to happen...i mean really really wan it to happen... I was with my friends in a karaoke room ofcourse with "her". Then We sing some few songs...after awhile the song "给我一首歌的时间" by jay chou is on air....so..i told my friends that i wan to solo this song...they gave me solo....i sing and walked around the kbox room right before the end i stood infront of her....and ask her can you gimme a time of a song, hear my story before you say goodbye....then she say yes...I told her everything i wan to say....and at last she say yes...she stood up and kissed me on my mouth...everyone of my friends was clapping shouting etc...then we went back to our seat...she placed her head on my shoulder i hugged her...then she told me that she have something to tell me too...she told me that actually last time.....RING!!!! then in realilty my phone rings and woke me up.... =.=

In Love with you

2009-02-18T10:07:00.000+08:00

The tears that fall
fall from your gentle eyes
The tears that you shed
is proof that your heart is bleeding

No one knows cause no no one cares
I know is because i care
care about the condition of your heart
care about the happiness of your soul

No one knows how i feel
No one knows how much i bleed
Including you
Including me

What can i do
When my heart beated my mind
What can i do
When I am still in love with you?

The Right Thing

2009-02-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

Decisions are made every day, but you didnt notice it...when you decided to brush your teeth before you wash your face, or to eat the vegies on your plate before you eat your rice..but sometimes it is hard to make decisions...in order to do the right thing which decisions will you make?in the world of love there is no such thing as the right thing...but decisions must still be made...which sep must i take? which way should i go?no one knows...

Mistakes

2009-01-23T19:16:00.001+08:00

Everyone will have at least one mistake...no matter how smart you are,no matter how careful you are,you will always have mistakes,so am I...I did some mistakes that cant be corrected...now nothing can be done....beside sit,think,regret...and hope i will forget this mistake soon...

MCLPY season 2 c.10

2009-01-23T07:12:00.000+08:00

Chapter 10:In The End

Day 15....last day,last chance...today was the cny party, got performace and i am the one in charge of the background music, i screw up few times...cause i was thinking too much...then "she" told me "she" got to go early today...and i panicked...searched despretely for a chance alone with "her" but there was no chance...then "she" told me i got to go now...and suddenly my mind gone blank...i just told her to give me one last chance...she just sighed...and walked away....I guess i know the answer now...In the end the bad guy was me...In the end the only one that love is me...In the end the one that hurt is me....

Broken Melodies
The instruments that I played
The songs i wrote
The things i did just to make you said

You gave me some broken melody
Told me to make a song
What song will it be known by nobody

I picked up the tunes
I took up the task
In the end i found it was in runes

In the end I used up all melodies
In the end It became a Tragedy...

MCLPY Season 2 c.9

2009-01-21T07:20:00.000+08:00

Chapter 9:Dont think just do

14th day...today is the rehersal for tommorow's show at my "office".After the rehersal someone called "her" and talked for less then 1minute,but "she" seem happy after talking to that someone...maybe its a guy...maybe i am just thinking too much...oh well...didnt get the chance to tell "her" today...tommorow will be the last day of my work.tommorow will be the last day i see her,tommorow is my last chance to say it...i have to tell myself dont think just do....

MCLPY season 2 c.8

2009-01-21T07:08:00.000+08:00

Chapter 8:My Feelings,Your Feelings
12th day....Its been 12days since i have been working with "her"....but till now still cant figure out,what should I do,The boss stop nagging me,maybe he is fed up with me,the mysterious girl stopped looking for me,maybe she gave up on me....Everything seems to be back to normal,so it is time to think properly and to act normally."She" finish her work early but "her" transport comes late, so "she" went into the playroom to play lego...I sat infront of "her", "she" seems to be ignoring me again....Does "she" even know how i feel? Can I even ask how "she" feels?I dont know what is "her" feeling,"she" dont know mine...Should I even ask? Should I even tell? What is going to happen if I just leave it there...till the day "she" gone?

MCLPY season 2 C.7

2009-01-15T18:56:00.000+08:00

Chapter 7:The Bad Guy

It has been 10days since i work there, during the 7th,8th and 9th day...we get along pretty well, now i am starting to think i might have another chance,but today....someone told me that this was wrong,if i keep going for "her" it will only make "her" sad..So if i keep loving "her" this will only make both of us suffer...Is it really true? Am I doing the wrong thing? Am I really the bad guy?

MCLPY season 2 C.6

2009-01-14T08:16:00.000+08:00

Chapter 6:Songs and feelings

Day 6, well needless to say today i was expecting something special, but all i get is a paperwork with "her", a perfect time to tell "her" how i feel and i just chickened out...Instead we talked about songs and feelings, I hear songs by its lyrics and feelings, "She" hear songs by it music and its feelings. Today i went to lunch and i found one of my classmate also works nearby so we went for lunch, she asked me how am I with "her". I told him that i dont even have a clue of what is going on, she encourage me and tell me not to give up. She even told me if I just tell her how i feel it is already the best I can do. And so, I hear a song over and over again...Planning,hearing and feeling to the song.

MCLPY season 2 C.5

2009-01-14T07:28:00.000+08:00

Chapter 5:Time Limit

Day 5, Today I think it will be just an ordinary day...working dreaming....then after my 1st session boss told me to help "her" in "her" work, so i just do as he says....I helped out and when "she" is doing "her" job, "she" seems to be more attractive then usual, after we finish the job i went to have lunch and came back, "she" told me that she is going to resign and going to leave her jobs to me, i tried to persuade her not to go, but "she" told me "she" needs to get a certificate of english or something like that...my heart just dropped, now, it is not to sit and think, it is the time to act,to race against time, to find her heart, to do something before the time limit ends...

MCLPY season 2 C.4

2009-01-14T07:15:00.000+08:00

Chapter 4: So Close yet So Far

Day 4 of my work....Starting to get used to controlling the kids...same as always i went to work and went home during my break...after that i went back to the "office". "She" sms me and tell me to come faster as there is no one at the "office" and "she" needs me to take care of our "project". So when i reach at the top "she" told me that my "client" complained about me and she laughed...we talked for awhile before "her" dad called and she went home. That night i called her and we talked for 3minutes or less..the feeling was close....but also far...I feel that she still love me...but also denying me...The feeling is just like so close...yet...so far....

MCLPY Season 2 C.3

2009-01-10T07:19:00.001+08:00

Chapter 3:Comfirmation

Day 3,Still struggling to figure out which should i pick,today i decided to go home instead of staying at the "office" and when i return to the "office" "she" is already gone...so i just continued my work...i went home after work and i didnt talk to "her" or even smsed "her".. I am starting to think "she" is avoiding me after i wrote that sms last time...Then I asked myself why do I still even cared about "her" feeling, that is when i confirm that the one I love is her....

MCLPY Season 2 C.2

2009-01-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

Chapter 2: Second thoughts

Day 2 of my job, still feel abit unsual and got a 2nd session i need to do in the "office". Saw "her" inside the glass window room again, the feeling is getting stronger and stronger, still trying to confrim wheather i still love "her" or not and the boss is still nagging me about my relationship with "her". after my 1st session i have 3hour to spare so i go to mamak and eat, after that i went to a cyber cafe nearby to spend my time...after that i went back to the "office" i was thinking about the issue, "she" run pass me and said bye before i even notice her,i said bye to "her" as soon as i notice "her" but i doubt that "she" heard me.

After work i went to pasar malam with my friends,same as yesterday i start to think of "her" but today there is another person on my mind which is the form 4 girl...my friends told me to forget "her" and go for the form 4 girl, but i have learnt my leason(from season one). Friends advice can only stay as advice the final desicion will be made by me and only me. There is many reasons why i should just forget "her" and also many reasons why i should go for the form 4 girl...And so it seems i have second thoughts again...

MCLPY Season 2 C.1

2009-01-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

Chapter 1:Back To Square One

The start of a new year,new life,new hope,new goals,everything was seems to be brighter than usual. One day I found out i am almost broke, I go and apply for a job at TGV but no reply, then "she" suddenly sms me and asking wheather am i interested to work at her shall we say "office"? "she" is actually the girl of my dreams, but in season 1 i already got a final answer which is "only be friends" and "last answer". And before the new year i taught i already forgotten her, so i accepted the job.

At the "office", there is a friendly boss, this is my first day and he seems to treat me well, one thing annoys me though he always seems to keep ask me about my relationship with "her" i deny it ofcourse. Then i saw her working inside a room with a glass window.And i found out i still got feel for her...

After work I went swimming with my friends, after that i went with them to a nearby mamak store to have dinner...the whole day i was thinking of "her". Then at the mamak store A friend of mine which is form 4 smsed me and ask me who do i like. Then only i found out she have feelings for me...doubts start to play game with my mind again....Just when i taught everything is over....Just when i taught i dont love "her"...Just when i taught no one will love me.everything starts over and I am back to square one....

MCLPY season 2

2009-01-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

Everything was suppose to end last year...Who would have taught...MCLPY season 2 is here...same characters from season 1 with some new faces! Last season was at smkbbsl this time it is at a "office". Will MC get PY? Or MC will take a mysterious new girl? Will this be the last season? Will it be the shortest season...Same as always full of mysteries and questions ready to be solved...

Problematic year

2009-01-08T07:25:00.000+08:00

Haiz....last year was already full of problems...this year few more problems came into my life and some of those which is suppose to be solved during last year came back again....think alot...worry alot...solving little...maybe it is time to solve every problem i have....

Worrywhat

2009-01-07T19:06:00.000+08:00

Lol today i found out that i am a guy that worries alot...maybe is the reason that i think too much...its sucks to think and worry that much...and today i worry that about something that should i do or not...and i end up doing it in a different way...WHAT AM I DOING???? Shit....>.< mostly "she" will think i am a physcho,my boss think i am a wimp...the kids i work with think i am dumb...oh my god...what have i gotten myself into??? @.@

The Feeling is Back

2009-01-05T16:06:00.000+08:00

1st day of work....1 kid is kinda little but can be handled, but i see her today again...the feeling is back...and i dont know how long i can hold on...i love her...i want to be with her...i dont want her to be sad...haiz...i dont know what i can do...

The Night Before New year

2008-12-31T18:38:00.000+08:00

This is the night....I hope next year will be better then this...many things happen,bad things, sad things...Love,family,finance....at least i hope one of this will be better next year...hopefully

The Soulmate

2008-12-30T14:13:00.001+08:00

Winter comes every year

And everytime it comes someone was there with me

Instead of her its you

Morning till night you stay with me

Until the day we die

Never apart as we are soulmates

You complete me

Everyone knows it

Everyone accept you as my only soulmate

A Clown's Frown

2008-12-28T09:13:00.000+08:00

They juggle

They meddle

They make you laugh till you cant even fiddle

Everyone thinks they are happy

Everyone thinks they are funny

But no one knows what lies under their smile

Giving joy to us

honking their nose to make us laugh

Spray water with their flower to get our attention

Never asked for our compliments

Never show how trully he feels

Never let us cry infront of him

Inside of him is sorrow

and we laugh at him

we bully him

sometimes even hit him..

he still smile despite all that

he still make us laugh ignoring all of that

Never judge a book by its cover

As it appereance may differ

Never judge a clown by its smile

As under the smile maybe a frown

Xmas at japan

2008-12-28T06:31:00.000+08:00

Japan, tokyo...once i taught it is a busy city but now...lol i just write it down in a note form

1)Tokyo weather during xmas=Free aircond throughout the city~ bad thing is you cant control the temperature :(

2)Tokyo population=Malaysia population =.=

3)Disneyland condition=Magical,romantic...one of the thing i hate most =.=

4)Products=insanely expensive 100yen=rm4...1 can of coke cost 150yen=.=

5)People at tokyo=if you are their customer they treat you like royalty,if you work for them they treat you like salves...

6)space=its small....seriously one restaurant can oni fit about 10-18ppl...i hit my head on the ceiling twice =.= not for tall people

7)shopping=paradise for shoppingholic,worst then hell for your wallet

conclusion, tokyo is a romatic place...its perfect for couples to spend their holidays there,recomended places are tokyo bay and disneyland...i am not joking disneyland seriously is romantic err...disneysea in the disneyland is romantic i duno about the others...the whole trip i was babysitting 5children...every single day i think of her..hoping that she will be by my side :P

Five

2008-12-19T07:51:00.000+08:00

Once i fell in love with you

Twice i have been together with you

Everytimes starts with you

Everytimes ends with you

Twice it happens

Thrice it ends

What is happening to me?

For once i belive that you will love me

For twice i tried to forget you

Everything of you i remembered

Everyting of mine you've broken

For what reason for me to love you?

Someone tried to like me

I also liked her

But i cant be with her

I cant have her in my heart

I cant have me in yours

Why do i still even care about you?

Its christmas,

Its the season to love,

Its the season to wish,

Its the time to give gifts

Its the time to spend my time away from you.

surely i will get something for you

Will you get something for me?

When i am back from there,

i dont wish for anything,

i dont want any stupid gifts,

all i want is for you to be with me,

this is what i want for christmas

and this is what i want to give you for your christmas.

Are you willing to accept?

and so it starts from

One just want to care for you

Two just want to love you more

Three just want you to be just a little bit happier

Four i want you to be mine

and Five all you need to do is say yes...

I cant do it

2008-12-18T20:25:00.000+08:00

haiz....i cant do it...i liked a girl but i still love the old one...i dont want to hurt anyone end up hurting my ownself...i dont want to love someone but i keep loving her, i wan to love the one i like but i cant...i i dont want this to happen but it happen...haiz....what to do? WHAT TO DO????

Exist in my heart

2008-12-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

As long as time was created

Nothing i have seen is as beautiful as you

Gonna make you my lover

Even though you say no,

Loving you just the way you are

I know you say you dont need love

Not now not ever

For now i can only say i love you

Only just to make you love me

Only just to feel being loved by you

Nothing can replace "her" i know,

Going to put her behind me,

Shall put you next to me

Have to give you my heart

Inside you there is a glass heart

As small as a grain of sand,as precious as life itself

Only me will be able to protect it, to care for it, to love it

West is the where the sun sets

East is where the sun rise

In my heart is where you are going to exist.

Will You

2008-12-15T08:24:00.000+08:00

What if the sky will fall and no one is there to protect you

What if the gods and goddess of nature only spare the life of few

Will you look for me for protection?

Will you look for me for directions?

What if you watched a comedy and laughed?

What if you watched a tragedy and cried?

Will you wish you laugh by my side?

Will you wish I were there when you cried?

What if he dumped you for another?

What if he and you cant go any futher?

Will you wish that i am by your side to comfort you?

Will you wish that i am there just to love you?

What if I say i love you?

What if I say i care for you?

Will you do the same for me?

Will you laugh for only me?

Will you cry for only me?

Will you give you love just for me?

Chirstmas wish

2008-12-15T07:22:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming again....last year i spent my chirstmas at home.This year i will be spending it with my family+3 other family to japan...fun right? actually no.=.= in my family got 5people going which include my dad,mum,sis,grandma and me,everyone of them have a friend going along beside me,that is not a big deal right? yeah you are right, try going there with 5-8kids and you being the babysitter how do you feel about that? The worst of all is i am suppose to spend my christmas eve and my christmas at disneyland! Well at least i can return to my childhood days....

Every year i also have a christmas wish,last year i wish for a basketball shoes and i really got 1. But this year the wish is kinda impposible that it will become reality, i am not going to write what is it..But i guess you all should have a faint idea of what am i wishing. So? what is your chirstmas wish for this year? whatever it is i hope that it will come true....Merry chirstmas everyone~ :D

Forgeting

2008-12-14T08:00:00.000+08:00

The mind need space to remember,you need to forget something to remember new ones. Sometimes we remember something that we dont want to remember...i will list down the stuff i want to forget in here, hope that this will save my memory here but forgeting it in the real life.

1)her hp number-016-3x3xxx3(cant post this here =P)

2)her favorite food-spaghetti,M&M original

3)her favorite bubble tea flavor-peach,honeydew

4)her hobby-reading

5)she likes to shop for accesorries,books and cds but not clothes

6)she dont like to wear dress/skirt(but saw her wear that day to jusco hm...)

7)the 1st store i went with her alone-living cabin.

8)her birthday-30 dec

9)the date where she go out with me alone-29th march(only to buy a friends present =.=)

10)the words she said i love to hear most- F M C

11)the we watched alone-ah long pte ltd.

12)the place where we eat our lunch together alone-tepanyaki the 3rd table from the front door to the right

13)the day where i spend 30minutes alone with her at the library -7th august(also the date where my phone 1st "kena rampas")

14)her favorite colour-white

15)her favorite songs-i swear,nan ren nu ren,xia yi ge tian liang,love tonight

16)Everything that i did for her

and 17)everything she did to me....

Suffering

2008-12-13T15:32:00.000+08:00

Haiz....since the day i have a crush on you i suffer, during we were couples i still suffer,when we broke up also i am the one who suffer,then you told me you will gimme an answer after spm, before and during spm i still suffer. i hope that after spm you will gimme something to smile about, and all i get is "i juz wanna be frens,this is my last answer." now i still suffer.I am bored of hearing "just wanna be friends". i am hurt to hear "this is my last answer". I am tired of loving you. I am suffering just to forget you